I finally checked my email after like 3 months and all I can say is "wow"! Normally I would pass this off to promo but it seems that this problem has spread over multiple sites and so I'm going to deal with it directly. See there was a little bit of drama between me and a certain guy who shall remain nameless and it would seem that some groupies of his blame me for "him getting fat and dirty"... umm I haven't talked to him in months so how is it my fault that he changed? First off I don't really know how it's any one's business what effect he or I had on the other, but since it appears to be public knowledge now, let me just say I am in no way responsible for his downfall. I adore him to pieces despite the less that savory terms we parted on and I would never wish anything bad on him at all. I don't know why or if he has even changed these are just the random ass accusations and whispers amongst former mutual friends.

The next thing is some chick accused me of forcing him to move. Lol really? Am I that powerful? Um no. Directly after the miscarriage I told him I was moving there, suddenly the next month he decided he was going there as well. My plans, as laid out with the leasing office in July included me moving there in November after the fall term of AIY, so that I could begin next term at AI Charleston. I've been accepted to AI Charleston since July so yeah... get over it, I had NOTHING to do with it nor do I even know if he actually moved. For the record, those who know me know that I moved up from the South in 2008 and this was only supposed to be a temporary move until I sold my home in Georgia which I just now did thanks to this sucky ass economy. So if you feel the need to talk about me, at least get the story strait.

The third accusation from yet another random chick (Notice none of these are coming from him) is that I am bothering him: okay, again, lets look at this with verifiable info shall we? We engaged in one IM conversation on 9/30/09 in which he flip flopped about weather or not he and that German broad were an item. Once he finally admitted it after first denying it, I told him we could not be in each others lives anymore, I did cuss him out for being condescending and was pretty mean. Yes, perhaps that was inappropriate however HE had me over at his place the night before he went to Germany “getting back on good terms” and had been starting stupid fights and lying to me ever since. So bothering? No. A justifiable tongue lashing that lasted all of 2 IM’s. The next bit of contact was on 10/5/09 where it was a simple text asking him to cancel the 3D ultrasound appointment for his own damn child. He didn’t of course. I was slightly pissed at that, so I gave it a week for me to calm down, sent him an email on the 12th explaining my perspective, apologizing for the mean things I said on the 30th and wishing him well with his newest paramore. After that was an accidental happy Halloween text that went to my entire phone book, he was listed a G and I didn’t recall who it was. I have since deleted it. That’s it. Nothing more. Nothing less. So after the official end of any type of relationship on the 30th, 3 times, 1 was baby related, 1 was intentional and 1 was accidental. Oh if that's bothering than someone has no life.

Fourth rumor, I got a Mr. Yuck tattoo for him. TRUE. I did in fact get that tattoo, and my motives were not so much revenge or spite as they were a reminder not to fall into this again. Like it or not, he does have a certain pull over me with his sweet charm, and I needed a permanent end to this ugly situation. He could tell me the sky is pink with yellow polka dots and I would believe him. Now to those uninvolved that may appear relatively extreme, though keep in mind he tattooed worse about himself on people so in this particular situation it is just another tattoo that is a part of a sleeve. When you miscarry two babies (heterotopic twins) in a 3 week time frame, have your hormones come crashing down, have to explain to 2 toddlers that their baby "sister" (they just assumed) is gone forever, have to shell out 12k in medical bills and deal with catty bitchy gossip, we'll see what types of decisions you make. Was it the best idea to get that tattoo? Not really, does it signify something to me and has it helped me? Yes. To each their own. That's it. Nothing more and nothing less, he doesn't even know I got it! If it doesn't bother him or I, then it shouldn't bother you.

The fifth rumor is that I am bothering his girlfriend. Not true at all, as a matter of fact it is the other way around. She leaves stupid little comments and messages on my official acting blog and forums. One of my readers Mikey, did in fact add her on facebook but that was due to an exchange between the two of them that happened in the comment section there. In addition to that, one of the two of them tried to hack my passwords on every single networking site and my blog. The hacks on here initiated in Germany (per my stats reports).. where she just so happens to live. I also keep getting anonymous emails from INSPOT. Classy!!! I don't know her, don't care about her and will be damned if I ever have to fight with some chick over a dude. It's not that serious. I mean I have been way to busy to worry about such nonsense. Besides that, I have moved on twice since then. One an attempt to rekindle with an old flame who once again annoyed me and the other in this shiny happy relationship that I currently find myself in. So with dating, finishing up another screen play, photo shoots, tattoos, the holiday season, traveling, 2 toddlers, changing management, selling a house, mid terms/finals, searching for a half decent online PR person, working on buying yet another tattoo shop and just life in general I simply don't have the time.

So random little groupies, who are trying so hard to earn their free tattoos, we're not in high school anymore. Perhaps if you spent some time examining your OWN life, which I know to be far from perfect instead of mine, you would be in a much better position. I apologize, but my goal is to NOT be you. That would be back tracking, and I am all about moving forward and being successful. This is all I am going to say about this same song and dance because my personal life and the gossip that surrounds it is starting to overshadow the movies I make, photos I take, the non profit work that I do and that is ridiculous. The is not like Twilight, there is no "Team Casandra" vs "Team _ _ _ _ _" Get Over It